The SCIENCE of PTSD and DISSOCIATION | Debunking DID: Ep 12

Hello everybody, welcome back to another video by DissociaDID. We are a channel that’s devoted to providing education and destigmatizing dissociative identity disorder. This video is a debunking DID video which means that all the links to studies, medical journals, everything you need to know about the research that’s included in this video will all be found in the description box below. So don’t forget to go and check out the research at the end of this video. Okay, so How does dissociative identity disorder relate to PTSD? What is PTSD and why do you need to know about it? If you have dissociative identity disorder, let’s find out. (Music) So let’s start with the real basics. Why does PTSD have anything to do with DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder? DID is essentially a very severe form of complex PTSD. If you wanted to consider it on a scale, like everything is really on a spectrum, the least severe in terms of long-term effect on brain function would be PTSD then CPTSD then OSDD and then DID, dissociative identity disorder. (Train passing in the background) Alright. Fine. Cool. Train, sorry. (Humming starts) Nina let me do this, please. I’ll be quick. I’ll be quick. Okay, everyone with *DID or OSDD will suffer from PTSD. That doesn’t mean that all alters in a system, which means every personality in one body will suffer from PTSD but every system will suffer from PTSD and because of that, it’s very important to understand how PTSD works and how it affects the brain. Especially because PTSD is what causes triggers and flashbacks. Now I’m sure a lot of you have heard of those phrases Especially when it comes to like memes of like triggered and stuff like that. But what does it really mean? Let’s start off by discussing PTSD. So what is PTSD? At the most basic level, PTSD is a memory filing error which is caused by a traumatic event. When you do experience a traumatic event your brain will switch into survival mode. This means that although normally as you’re experiencing life, your mind will be processing what’s happening and creating memories, of the experience that you’re having. But if you’re experiencing a trauma, the brain will suspend some of its normal functions. This will generally shut down normal operations. That would be going on, in day-to-day life such as the creation of memories and memory processing. The brain thinks, considering what’s happening now, this could be a life or death situation. Either way, it’s something intensely traumatic and difficult and could be a threat to my life. What’s important right now, is getting my heart rate up, getting ready to run, getting ready to escape this danger or get out of this situation. Alive. And as unimpacted by it as possible. So more important things right now might be sending adrenaline to your muscles. For example, so memory processing can take a backseat until we’re out of this situation. We need to be safe first and foremost because of this until the danger passes. The mind doesn’t process the memory of that event in a normal way because it suspended its memory processing functions. This means that when the brain goes back to that little file of the Experience to present it to the person to be processed as a memory. It can be very very distressing. Why, why is it distressing you might think, the person has already been through this, they’ve already done it. Why is it so distressing for it to come up again? The issue is the brain doesn’t recognize this experience as a memory because it hasn’t been filed as one. So when the brain presents it to the person, to get ready to process it as a memory the brain thinks that this is an event that’s happening, right now. The facts of what happened during the trauma will be relived as if it was happening in that very moment. Which includes sensations: feelings of physical touch, sights, Smells, sounds, taste, vision movement, smell. All of it exactly how it was and the brain isn’t able to Distinguish that this isn’t happening right now because it hasn’t been filed as a memory yet. This experience is presented to the mind in the form of a flashback. Where you re-experience everything that happened during a trauma, as if it was happening in that very moment. Before I go any further, it’s very important to remember to distinguish PTSD and DID. PTSD can form at any time in life after a traumatic event occurs. However, DID can only form in childhood for the ages of 7 to 9. Which is when the personality fully integrates into one personality. Repeated trauma in childhood disrupts the development of this singular personality and so they end up with multiple. This is what dissociative identity disorder is. After the age of 79, the personality is fully integrated into one. So it is impossible for the dissociative identity disorder to form after those ages. However, if you are experiencing traumatic events, it is completely possible for PTSD to form. So, some people may have the DID and PTSD, others may only have PTSD. You can only get the DID from repeated childhood trauma and some other factors that are involved in the creation of Dissociative identity disorder. Okay. So now we know basically what PTSD is and essentially what a flashback is. So what’s a trigger? When you experience something like a sound or a smell? The first thing your mind does is go off to try and find a memory that matches the information that it’s being given. For example, if you smell Sun cream your brain may associate a memory of a good holiday that you had and when you’re smelling that Sun cream you may be reminded of this lovely holiday that you had. So when you experience something that may have been related to the event of the trauma and your mind goes off to try and find something associated with what it’s experiencing. The first thing it will come across is this unfiled, unprocessed experience of the trauma and thinks oh, I need to process this as a memory. This hasn’t been filed yet. Let me bring it up so that we can process it and this is then presented to the person in the form of a flashback where they re-experienced everything as I explained earlier. Again, this isn’t something you can just snap out of because the brain can’t distinguish that this isn’t just a memory. It needs to be re-experience in order to be filed as one. Because of this sufferers, of PTSD can have lots of triggers and they may not necessarily make sense. There is no such thing as a silly trigger. It is whatever your mind has associated with something that happened around the time of or during a trauma. Triggers can be anything, a sound, a smell, an object, a taste. Being touched in a particular place, in a way on your body, tone of voice. Volume of voice, specific sounds. Anything can be a trigger. Even emotions can be triggers and they can bring back flashbacks of a traumatic experience. So in order to combat and reduce your flashbacks, if you have PTSD is really really important to come to terms with and understand the triggers. There can be external and internal triggers. So external triggers are things that you may be faced with on the outside. These can be things such as sounds, sights, smells are associated with trauma. People, locations or objects, “things” that could record the trauma. Significant dates or times like anniversaries of an event. Especially if it was a, especially if it was a reoccurring event, so some sufferers of the DID experienced organized abuse that may have happened on specific birthdays or Specific dates and this can be a trigger, that date can be an anniversary of trauma which can be triggering. Anything in nature even like weather conditions, temperature. Conversations or media coverage about trauma or whether that’s specific to your trauma or not can be distressing. Which is why it’s very important to be careful or even just not ask about someone’s trauma. We made a whole video on this if you would like to see it. You can find it up here! Situations that make you feel claustrophobic or confined So for example, if you’re sat in a doctor’s office or something like that, this can also include buildings. So like certain buildings, like hospitals may be triggering to some people or schools. These are just the most common it can really be anything and like I said, there’s no such thing as a silly trigger. Internal triggers are things that are more like Emotions or feelings, any physical discomfort like fatigue, hunger, thirst sickness, sexual frustration. Any bodily sensations that might be reminiscent of trauma. Such as pain, touching the site of an old wound or injury, very strong emotions, especially feeling helpless or out of control or like you have no say in the situation. Can be very triggering. Mixed feelings towards people so you may love someone very much but also feel a lot of resentment and anger and pain those Feelings and that confusion can also be triggering because you think why do I feel this way, bam! memory. (Chuckle) Yeah, not fun, so again, let’s bring this a little bit more back to dissociative identity disorder. What are the dissociative subtypes of PTSD? Dissociation is a normal experience. Everybody dissociates, what you may know is zoning out, is dissociating. This is normal and nothing to worry about. You may be reading a book and realize you’ve come to the end of the page But don’t remember what you were reading or maybe you drive and you don’t remember the journey at all. You just kind of went on autopilot and all of a sudden. Oh god. I’m on the motorway. Thank goodness. (Chuckles) Yeah Because I wasn’t paying attention, your brain is just dissociated. Which kinds of means, one of my therapist said once, it’s like your conscious mind putting its feet up and letting your Unconscious mind sort of drive the body so you can have a rest. This is normal. Abnormal dissociation is much more intense than that and it can involve losing memories and amnesia, things like that. We do have a video on the difference between normal and abnormal dissociation and also derealization and depersonalisation if you’d like to watch that you can find it up. Here! So dissociating, is a really common response to trauma and it’s almost always found alongside PTSD It’s an instinctive way of blocking out memories of trauma or feelings that came with trauma. It’s thought to be an automatic defense mechanism when you’re faced with something like an overwhelming Emotion or physical trauma. It occurs in around 50% of adults but as a psychiatric condition it shows up in about 3% of people and when you think about it 3% of the, what 7 billion and something, people in the world. That’s a lot of people, you have a dissociative disorder, chronic, abnormal and problematic dissociation. Is much more likely to occur if you have experienced repeated trauma is even more likely that you’ll develop a dissociative disorder if this occurred in childhood so really dissociation is an umbrella term. It can include people suffering from, well normal dissociation. It can also include people who have depersonalisation and derealisation and Dissociative Identity Disorder. It can range from mild to severe and it can last a few moments or years. So if you have general dissociation, you might experience things like feeling yourself or the world around isn’t real. Minor memory loss, like I said If you were driving your car and you don’t remember how you got somewhere just a few minutes, feeling that you might have multiple identities. Sensitivity to light and sound, tunnel vision feeling like you are bigger or smaller than you actually are or the world around you is growing or shrinking. Not really being aware of the passage of time or seeing objects that appear to move when they’re actually stationary. These are all symptoms of general dissociation if you have Depersonalisation then you’ll feel very disconnected from yourself. The experience is kind of a change in your self-awareness of who you are as a person. You may feel like you’re observing yourself. Maybe from a bird’s eye perspective Or just observing yourself, watching yourself do things as though it’s not really you doing it. People often describe it, as like “watching yourself from the outside”. Feeling like this isn’t happening to me or as though you’re watching a film of yourself. I always described it as seeing myself as like a character in a game like a PlayStation And somebody else was controlling this character, that was me. Detachment from your emotions or the intensity of your emotion. Out-of-body experiences being unable to recognize yourself in a mirror or feeling, just feeling very disconnected from yourself and the body that you reside in. So whereas with the personalisation you experience detachment to yourself. Derealisation is a detachment or feeling of, unreality to the world around you. You may feel like you constantly live in a dream or the world around you is dreamlike or just not quite real. A quote I found about derealisation is that it’s been described as; “Peering at the world through a fog with a world unreachable and meaningless.” I’ve always described it as similar to that, like you’re looking through a fog or looking through someone else’s eyes, a world that doesn’t really exist. It’s just not real, like even if you could touch something. You might feel like your hand will go right through it or constantly feeling as though you’re in a dream, things may look bigger or smaller than they really are. You’ll feel very detached from the world, even familiar things may seem Unfamiliar, even though you know, they’re familiar. Very strange feeling, feeling that people, you know aren’t real and the sense of what’s happening isn’t real. So what about dissociative identity disorder, DID which used to be known as multiple personality disorder, was renamed in the 1990’s. So it’s the same disorder, it’s just now called Dissociative Identity Disorder. Its the most extreme of these three types of dissociation. They will experience all the symptoms that have come with the other three types of Dissociation as well as some others. If you have DID you may feel uncertain about who you are And feel like you have other people living inside your body or separate identities that you have no real memory of what happened when they were fronting, when they were out. You might experience seeing different handwriting that’s vastly different or just slightly different from yours. DID is often very very covert as it’s the defense mechanism, which is meant to keep you safe. So a lot of these differences may be very minor, feeling like a stranger to yourself. Feeling like there are other people living in your body, behaving out of character, hearing voices referring to yourself as we. Being very very confused about your sexuality or agenda. I remember that, that was a fun time. (Laughs) So what’s the relationship between PTSD and dissociation around 15 to 30% of sufferers of PTSD also report the derealization and depersonalisation. And other research which has assessed a relationship with PTSD to dissociation has suggested that there might be a dissociative subtype of PTSD, but this does need a little bit more research. The studies that we do have regarding it have shown that those with a dissociative subtype of PTSD will have experienced repeated trauma before the onset of the PTSD. So around now you may be thinking, okay Chloe I get it. Now I know what PTSD is, DID is dissociation depersonalisation and derealisation. All are, as well as triggers and flashbacks, but what’s the science behind it? If you’re studying PTSD It’s very important to remember that PTSD is considered to be a psychological injury, rather than a mental illness. Lot’s of neuroanatomical studies have identified changes in major brain structures for people who have PTSD such as the Amygdala and the Hyppocampus. Which shows there are significant changes in the brain for sufferers of PTSD. Which, in turn, means that the brain can be directly influenced, changed, and affected by trauma. So let me give you some examples of how these changes to brain structure can effect the symptom. PTSD sufferer may find it very difficult to express how they’re thinking or feeling, to find the right words to describe their experience. This is actually due to the Pre-frontal Lobe which is responsible for language, being adversely affected by the trauma. Which affects and impairs linguistic function. Basically, it means that it impairs your ability to express yourself well with words. (laughs) For a non-sciency way of talking about it, people with PTSD may also find it difficult to control emotions. Which is due to the amygdala, brain scans of people with PTSD have shown that the Amygdala has increased in size and therefore is in overdrive and the Amygdala is responsible for emotions and emotional regulation which obviously explains why people with PTSD may struggle to control their emotions. The Amygdala is a lot larger than in someone who doesn’t have PTSD. Short-term memory loss and amnesia which affects people with PTSD is due to the Hyppocampus and opposite to the Amygdala. Which grows bigger, the Hyppocampus actually shrinks down. The Hyppocampus is responsible for memory assimilation and basically turning your experience into a memory. If you have DID this amnesia can be short term and long term. You may forget or will have no memory of whole sections of your life this can be years, months, decades. Yes, it’s distressing. These sections of your life and especially childhood will be separated into memory held by specific alters who will have experienced that or have the memory of the experience of that time which is why you have no memory of it. Each alters memory is separate, which means that amnesia is near constant for most people. PTSD has been described as someone being constantly on alert. Ready for danger and therefore can make you feel frightened no matter what you’re doing whether you’re safe or not. And this is due to the Pre-frontal Cortex. Specifically, the medial Pre-frontal Cortex which regulates emotion and fear responses as it just doesn’t work properly after experiences of trauma. It struggles to regulate itself and function as it would in a “normal” brain that hasn’t experience trauma. Let’s talk specifics. What about the effect of PTSD? specifically on the Hyppocampus, let’s go into some more detail with that. Under normal conditions when a memory is built or retrieved the Hyppocampus will simulate all this information into one experience, one memory. It will blend together all the different parts of that experience which includes information from all of the senses into one complete memory that’s assimilated. The Hyppocampus is responsible for short-term memory. So short-term memory is held in the Hyppocampus essentially, which is your conscious memory. So you’ll be aware of it and then when a memory is no longer needed to be a conscious memory in short-term. The Hyppocampus is the part of the brain that processes these memories to essentially move it into your long-term memory, which is in other areas of the brain. As I said before the Hyppocampus tends to shrink or reduce in volume in people who have PTSD and have suffered trauma or repeated trauma and this means that, if you’re trying to retrieve old memories or process new memories these experiences and memory can be distorted. The Hyppocampus is also the area of the brain that is responsible for distinguishing between reality. Things that are happening now and memory of the experience. So it’s the Hyppocampus fault that you have flashbacks because it can’t distinguish between the fact that this is a memory, that you’re experiencing and not an event that’s happening right now. So what about the Ventromedial Pre-frontal Cortex? Try saying that ten times fast (Giggles) Ventromedial Pre-frontal Cortex. Ventromedial Pre-frontal Cortex. Ventromedial Pre-frontal Cortex. Ventromedial Pre-frontal Cortex. Ventromedial Pre-Frontal Cortex. Ventralmedial Pre-funkel 🙂 I bet you’ll do better than me, comment below if you made it this far into the video and managed to say that ten times fast. Not slow, fast. Anyway, Ventromedial Pre-frontal cortex. This area of the brain regulates negative emotions like fear because this area of the brain shrinks in people who have PTSD. The ability to deal with and process these emotions is diminished because of this people with PTSD may experience extreme fear, distress, anxiety. Even in regards to things that seem to be completely unrelated to their trauma or only very mildly connected as it’s very difficult for this area of the brain to regulate itself. Now that it has shrunken size. You may have seen brain scans where it’s painfully visible that certain areas of the brain are much more active and light up a lot more than in people who don’t have PTSD. This is the Amygdala, trauma has been shown to increase activity in the Amygdala region of the brain. This area of the brain is also linked to processing fear responses and other emotional responses. It communicates with the Hyppocampus to decide whether things are safe. So, okay. This is an experience that’s happening. How do I feel about this? Is this situation safe? And if the response is no, then boom! Fear is released or panic or anxiety. It’s responsible for questioning. Okay. Do I need to start up, stress release hormones? Do I need to get the body ready to run? Is this situation dangerous? So as this area of the brain has become hyperactive and is communicating with the already slightly damaged Hyppocampus. The communication between them is going to be warped and will often result in the “wrong” or slightly distorted version of events. Which will mean that often the reaction is ah yes, This is a dangerous situation release all the fear, all the hormones, all these emotions. Especially as both these areas of the brain are responsible for processing emotions. It just gets a little bit hectic. So this affects your emotional regulation and also can cause distorted views of a situation. So what about your Cortisol Levels, biologic alterations that come from PTSD don’t uniformly resemble the kind of alterations that come from people who are just experiencing severe stress. In some studies of patients with PTSD, Cortisol Levels are shown to be much lower than normal. However, the Corticotropin-releasing factor in the cerebral spinal fluid is shown to be increased. The psychological and biological data show that the development of PTSD is partially due to the body being unable to contain stress response. So overall, trauma really does change the way the brain works, the way the body receives sensations and the way a person will experience the world. Trauma and PTSD can make the world seem like a perpetually frightening and dangerous place and this isn’t just because somebody is “overreacting”. The brain is making them think that and there are specific biological reasons as to why a person will be reacting this way. It’s not something you can just snap out of. Which is why it’s very important to take your time, be understanding and try to encourage and support Somebody with PTSD as much as you can. We’re going to be making a video on how to support people, how to help people, with PTSD and if you want to see the video that we did about why not to ask people about trauma. Then please feel free to check that out. Most of the videos in our debunking DID series are specifically about DID. And if you would like to have a look at those, please do have a look. We are very dedicated to eradicating as much stigma surrounding this disorder as possible and not all of our videos are this scientific based. So if you’d like to watch something more fun or something more advice based. Then we have lots of videos like that on our Channel and I really hope that you’ll stay and learn some more. Thank You so much for coming to visit DissociaDID! today. (Giggles) I’m sorry, thank you so much for watching this video. I really really appreciate it and hope you enjoyed it. If you did, please like and subscribe, and we will see all of you in the next video. Lots of love everybody. Bye (Music)

100 thoughts on “The SCIENCE of PTSD and DISSOCIATION | Debunking DID: Ep 12

  1. Are studying psychology or neuroscience ? I found your video very interesting but over all, very accurate. Your knowledge about psychotraumatology is very impressive. I also love the fact that you put sources in the description with scientific articles…. it's SO IMPORTANT to let people learn things by their own too. Sorry for talking more about the form than the content (which is very interesting though), but I had to mention it !!! Great job, love your vids ! <3

  2. Hi Chloe. I trust that you are well!! I have been watching quite a lot of your DID videos for my research on trauma, PTSD, and DID. You are quite informed about it and I just like listening to how you explain certain things. I am trying to get a hold of an article that I want to use for my research, one which you listed. It says that I first need to subscribe but in South Africa, that is quite a lot of money, otherwise I would not have minded. Is there another way to get this article?

    The article is: POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER, The New England Journal of Medicine, 108 · N Engl J Med, Vol. 346, No. 2 · January 10, 2002, RACHEL YEHUDA, PH.D,

  3. It's thanks to your videos I was diagnosed with CPTSD and have gotten soooo much freedom….. Still super lonely sometimes but thank you so much for helping me start my journey of healing xx

  4. How could there be people in the world so evil as to traumatize a child? I'm so happy you're here along with all your alters Chloe. You're doing something really good and important with this channel and you seem really happy.

  5. Would it be possible for someone with OSDD to experience trauma later on (after the 7-9 window) and end up with DID from then on?

  6. how did u first realize u had DID? i have ptsd and i dissociate really badly when i have a trigger and im not necessarily thinking i have DID but im quite interested in looking more into it. had a rough time with mental health the past few years

  7. you made me remember when i was a child when .. my mom get mad at me (let's say it like that) i used to cry saying "this is not real this is not my life I'm just alseep in kindergarten just dreaming" and now thanks for let me know about derealization and depersonalization didn't know those .. "moments" had a technical name.

    by the way i need to know something, the voices.. when you hear them it is like when you hear the tv or like when you hear your own thoughts? but a different voice that is not yours???

  8. I have ptsd from abuse from ages 11-17 from my mother. Unfortunately my original legal name is one of my triggers. Hearing it out loud is extremely stressful for me. Some of my other triggers are fireworks, thunder, yelling, and can openers. She’s right. There is no such thing as a silly trigger.

  9. Wouldn't CPTSD cause DID out of that and PTSD? Or did you mean multiple traumas for separate PTSD?

    Btw how can you put CPTSD as number 3…
    I mean you understand personality development in childhood, but if you're living a life with a personality of extended consistent trauma… Which affects everything all the time… But also very likely to be reabused as an adult…

    (Perhaps I should watch whole videos before asking questions lol)

  10. 24:27 Why is Nadia not just Chloe goofing around having fun?

    Serious question. I don't understand the naming of different parts of behaviours as identities. I just see it as parts of a singular personality. In that case, just you, Chloe.

    I mean it's one thing to get a name, a word for any thing in psychology so you can refer to it, quantify it and process it (if needed).

    Is that what this is? Just using names to keep the trauma at arms length as a different person?

    (Apologies if dumb question, I've studied Psychology unofficially for a few years now but DID was one I could never understand).

    Btw, the way Nadia spoke here. Sounds familiar. I can't place who but pretty sure it's from TV/Movie. Are you able to identify who that is and whether you've seen/heard that and picked it up? Curious.
    (Ie are you aware of where personalities character originates from and is that actually part of the process of working through DID?)

  11. Is it possible for someone to dissociate for years but don't have DID? Is it more likely another mental injury to cause this long term memory loss?

  12. Your makeup is always on point. Love the highlighter. Just found your channel and it's all very interesting. I have personally never met anyone with DID so I didnt know too much about it until watching yours and multiplicity and me YouTube videos. Thanks for putting out all this education ❤❤❤

  13. I do have bipolar in which I have rage episodes when I dissociate. I dont remember much of my rage episodes. Once it's over I cry uncontrollably. This didnt start happening until about a year ago. I cannot figure out how or why its happening. I hate it because I hurt the people I love and care about.

  14. Could it be possible for people suffering with schizophrenia to experience all 3 types of dissociation ?

  15. Chloe…it is amazing the amount of medical / scientific information you gave us. Great job! I am trying to understand DID, but I now know that PTSD is important to learn about as well.

  16. I remember my first dissociation was when I was being beat by my moms boyfriend. While he was hitting it was like I was seeing it as s memory, completely detached. I couldn’t hear I had tunnel vision, and time was moving really slow

  17. Where can I find more videos like this ? That talk about the neurology, while still keeping it simple. This video is awesome. It actually has answered some questions I've been wondering about!

  18. I was diagnosed with PTSD but I dont relate. The reason why my mother said I got it from wasn't really something I ever found stressful, I found it as a funny situation. Now I'm just confused. The only thing that happened that happened was I became depressed. But I dont think it was because on the situation they said it was.

  19. I have ptsd and mine is triggered by certain songs, smells, situations, sayings, seeing the perpetrators in person, looking at yearbooks, constant staring by others, etc. MY story: TW I was bullied, harassed, and threatened in middle school for 3 years until I transferred to another school. It was terrible, I was suicidal, and I used to cut. I’ve made a lot of progress, but it still SUCKS. I can’t look at anything I wrote about it/during that time either. I wish I could wake up without this burden. It’s so overwhelming. Flashbacks SUCK. Also, my boyfriend and mom try to be understanding, but just don’t get it. They think that my triggers are stupid & unnecessary. Also, I disassociate, but I don’t have DID. I have forgotten many details from middle school & blocked out a lot, but sadly, I still remember the insults and some events.

  20. Maybe Chloe can help me, or direct me to the correct video. My uncle says my cousin Amy has PTSD. Amy and I share the same grandparents. 24 years ago our grandmother died of cancer. 16 days later, our grandfather died of Parkinson's. 13 days later one if our uncle's died of a heart attack. We were all very sad. Our grandparents had been ill for a long time and we all knew they wished to pass on. Our uncle was single and was hit by a car while riding a bike. He had his heart attack during surgery. All of us cousins were sad for a long time. But Amy hasn't been able to do anything because she still misses our grandparents. She has been to all kinds of therapy, but seems happier to have a label, PTSD. None of us children were with our three relatives when they died. What can you make of this "enjoyment" of grieving. Amy goes out to lunch with her girlfriends, has a nice boyfriend, goes to movies and sporting events. But she cannot "work" due to her grief. Any words of inspiration? Thank you.

  21. Example of a PTSD trigger: I can't wear tight necklaces, high neck t-shirts, turtlenecks or have things around my neck… I immediately feel like I'm choking and can't breathe and have a full on panic attack. That's just one of the PTSD triggers that i have. This is 20 years after the original trauma and it still won't go away. That's just one of the many triggers that i go through. I don't have D. I. D. but i do understand a lot of the dissociation issues that you've discussed. When i go through severe pain from my other conditions it can take a while to try to come back to myself because I have to kind of…. Go away for a while to try to handle all of it.

  22. When I was 12, my girlfriend at the time had a horrible accident where she ended up dying, but I was at her bedside when she went brain dead. I’ve had really bad PTSD-like symptoms since then, and I’ve noticed that I’m missing time since then. There is time that I’m missing where it’s almost like sleep, where I drift off and then come back later in a different place/outfit/position/etc. People have told me that sometimes whatever comes out is little and cute and young, but other times what comes out is dangerous and angry and very manic. I’m curious as to how this is happening if I really only experienced trauma after my personality fully integrated. Could it be possible that it’s repressed personalities that have come out before when I was younger but not very often? I’ve always been kind of afraid of these “blackouts” where I end up doing things with no actual knowledge or recollection of doing these things. Any explanations?

  23. I've been told I have ptsd from my mum passing away over four years ago, and also from something I dealt with a year ago which is hard. I'm also going through Alot atm. So I'm not sure whether ptsd is still there from them experiences. I also have depression anxiety and bpd and I also get depersonalisation

  24. We don’t know what to do… We were just diagnosed with autism (totally unrelated, we know)
    And we seem to think we have lots/ most of the symptoms

    Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

    P. S.
    And our parents get so confused when we say we/ us instead of I/ me

  25. Depersonalization kinda sounds similar to what it feels like to experience dysphoria, or at least in my experience. Maybe there’s a connection? Idk just an observation ik nothing about phycology so it could be a total coincidence XD

  26. I don't feel as if i'm reliving my 'trauma' but I kinda see it and remember it. Is that valid or am I just remembering the event? Does it even count as trauma if I don't feel like im reliving it?

  27. Videos like these really make me hate myself at times. I complain and get depressed over the smallest things when there are people out there in this world suffering with mental illnesses and still managing to stay strong.

  28. I’m confused I think I have depersonalisation and derealisation but I have no memory I will do things and it’s like I never went there and my brain doesn’t memorise anything it’s like yesterday never existed! What the fuck is wrong with me I’ve done everything I can think of seen a physiatrist and no understands or is helping me. It’s been 7 months since I’ve had this and there is no peace I have nightmares every night I’m literally on the verge of killing myself not even god is answering my prayers

  29. This helped me so much omg. Honestly I've felt so lost and confused on why I feel certain thing and I appreciate this alot. ❤❤

  30. I have a question, if you have DID and have found a way to manage very well without therapy, is there a reason to get diagnosed? I know there may be factors that I am unaware of but I'm nervous for us to have this on file unless it's necessary.

  31. @DissociaDID Recently started my own childhood trauma intensive therapy. Finding your channel has really helped me have a better understanding of certain things I'm going through. Do you have any recommendations for vlog or channels for PTSD? Your knowledge is very calming to listen to. So thank you so much for that.

  32. I was diagnosed with derealisation in 4th grade, but it just got swept under the rug due to more important medical issues like depression and heart conditions. Therefore, not a lot of people know about it, including family. I feel like I’m in a dream and I’ll wake up any second now. It sounds stupid, but I feel like I’m in The Matrix. My dreams are very vivid due to medications so the line between life and dreams is very fuzzy.

  33. Do all of you (alters) experience PTSD the same way? I know it changes the brain chemistry of the body so I assume all of you “have” PTSD, but do all of you experience it equally?

  34. I have years of my life that are just a blurr. It's so frustrating to me. This has helped me understand a lot more about why. Thank you. (I have had a lot of things happen but me and my alters have been nervous to actually talk about it to a therapist. A lot of the time when I would switch and then I wouldn't remember what was said in the counselor meeting but they don't introduce themselves… Idk how to make everyone feel comfortable so that we can get help… It makes me worry. Harolld worries too but he doesn't want to push anyone else if they're not comfortable… Idk.)

  35. I was wondering how the body "remembers"the event in order to present it as a flash back if it is not a memory. Are there separate parts of the brain that store memories but only one is consciously accessible?

  36. i have been binge watching this channel, i had absolutely no clue what d.i.d. actually is. i thought it was so different that it actually is. i have learned so much and i find it so interesting. thank you so much for sharing your knowledge and experiences <3
    also i absolutely LOVE your hair

  37. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, and sometimes experience hyper awareness and derealization. Its really comforting to know I'm not alone. If you haven't already could you make a detailed video on hyper awareness/sensorimotor ocd? Its a relatively new symptom for me and I'm looking for ways to cope with it. Thanks so much!

  38. Would you ever consider filming any of your therapy sessions? I feel it could be really interesting to see how it works!

  39. I know this is an older video so if you never see this or get a chance to respond then so be it, totally fine!! Or if anyone else reading the comments has advice for me, please feel free to respond. DissociaDID, I’ve been watching your videos nonstop for the last few weeks and I relate to them very severely. I won’t go too much into my story for times sake and to avoid potentially triggering anyone reading this, but my trauma follows the types of trauma that cause DID to a T. I often feel like my personality changes drastically against my will, down to identifying with different names, genders, etc. That being said, I don’t necessarily identify with all symptoms of DID. I don’t feel like I have an inner world, I don’t experience changes in accent, things like that. DissociaDID, or anyone reading this, if you would be willing to message me privately I would love to have someone to talk to about this. Thank you for making the videos you do 💜

  40. Hi Cloe, I was wondering if you know anything about whether or not people with DID have a heightened amygdala response/activity or not. I’m a grad psych student and I am working on a thesis regarding DID and the connection with another condition that I don’t want to name at this point. Anyway this other condition is characterized among other brain abnormalities by a lowered sensitivity in the amygdala. I believe this condition to be somewhat on the other end of the spectrum when it comes to the emotional response of abuse. If I’m correct with my theory this would make it highly likely that people with DID have a heightened response in this part of the brain. I could not find any research on this and I was wondering if you knew whether or not that has ever been studied.

  41. I just found out that the intro becomes good trigger to my little, when we hear it the body starts dancing lmao HAHAHAHA

  42. This video is so great. I love how you explain all the parts of the brain and how it is impacted by PTSD. I will be using this with my clients to help them understand what is going on in their brain.

  43. I have problems with depersonalization dissociation and I didn't know it had a name. I live a good portion of my life like im watching a tape of what's happening. Like those movies that are like found tapes. Its a very uncomfortable experience, I do have PTSD

  44. What you said about having mixed feelings toward someone and that being triggering made a lot of sense to me–I sometimes meet a perfectly lovely person and wonder why I'm so uncomfortable, and then realize they have the same eyes or face shape or expression as someone involved in a traumatic event. It takes a lot of work for me to overcome that, and it happens with places too. I can't go into my university's science building outside of classes, for example, because the decorations are practically ripped whole cloth from the hospital where most of my abuse and trauma took place. Thank you for your concise and nuanced explanation of PTSD and triggers, as well as DID–I'll be sharing this video with others if they ask how my PTSD works and affects me. Love x

  45. Hi Cloe, do you have any scientific links about DID/PTSD/amygdala activity. What’s your understanding about causation/correlation?
    Does DID/PTSD cause a heightened activity in the amygdala? or could it also be the case that people who naturally have a higher activity in the amygdala are more likely to develop PTSD/DID from traumatic experiences?

  46. I can remember one specific time when I experienced dissociation. For me it wasn’t an out of body experience but as if all my emotions shut down and my body was a robot on autopilot. It’s like my mind decided these emotions were too much and turned them off until I felt safe. Even today, the memory feels off, like I can remember what happened, but it’s a blur of movement with no feelings associated.

  47. To Chloe (or anyone else in the system who can answer this):
    My close friend, who is finishing his PhD in cognitive science, has told me that it's possible to have DID without having experienced any trauma- that the brain is capable of achieving the same neurological circumstances even without these horrible experiences. Do you know anything about this? I can probably link a relevant medical journal of you're interested.
    Love your channel and everything that you do <3

  48. I’m about 90% sure I have ptsd but I just really don’t want to go to a professional to get it diagnosed because one of my triggers is being alone in a room with one person. This videos has really helped me understand what is going on in my head, thank you so much for making it because most people kind of just skim over all the technical parts of ptsd and just explain the symptoms.

  49. Thank you for this video. I have been thinking that I probably have PTSD about something that happened to me in childhood and I have some weird triggers. Thank you for saying that there is no such thing as a silly trigger!

  50. Wow I really like your videos, I wish I'd seen them sooner.

    In addition to PTSD, I have allergies and severe chronic pain. I don't know if you know this, but the latest trend in pain and psych meds (that I sometimes get off label for pain) is to add an NRI to them. I've noticed a correlation that these ones make me buggy. I was correlating it with allergies as norepenepherine is a vasodialator, but maybe it has to with trauma as well, my mind goes frantic looking for the source of the extra Adrenalin and it makes my stress unmanageable.

    I've been unable to find ANY articles on this, but I wonder if others have this issue and the correlation was just not made?

  51. I'm surprised you didn't link to The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk. He is who coined the term PTSD and made the link between trauma and the body and mind. On a personal note, I have PTSD myself, and it is crazy how many minute details bring up memories. I have a severe episode a few years ago, one of the worst; it took my almost 18 months to feel relatively normal again.

  52. Uhm, It's kind of embarrassing to me but, I had to skip backwards a few times because my brain didn't want to process what you said and I overshot approximately every time ._. So, may I ask you to ad timestamps with some key phrases (medical terms were my problem ._.) in your upcoming videos?

  53. 9:30 if I'm honest this bugged me a little. zoning out is completely different to dissociating. I'm really confused as to how, as someone who clearly experiences severe dissociation, this distinction isn't understood?

  54. How do I know if I have an

    • identity dissociation disorder?

    • Or amnesia dissociation

    • Or just depersonalisation/dr

    Furthermore, what’s the difference between PTSD/dissociation

  55. So…my Hippocampus (is that how it's spelled?) Is the reason I have these darn flashbacks??? I swear my own mind is against me😌

  56. When you said emotions can be triggers to flashbacks I got the chills I dont k how why but hearing that kinda comforted me

  57. I broke my hip three weeks ago, and I can still remember what I said and felt when the injury happened but, I don’t properly remember the injury occurring itself? I know how I explained it when I was in the er or talking to doctors. Is that PTSD, or am I still coping with it?

  58. Wait if you have PTSD your PTSD would be linked to your trauma so whenever you think of you having PTSD, which I would bet you can't forget you have PTSD wouldn't you get triggered?

  59. I'm just about to complete a trauma training series Level 1, and you explained the basics better than the PHD i'm learning from. I must write this down when i'm fully awake! well done!

  60. Woah, so sciencey! I feel like I learnt so much from this. Between this and the previous video, I feel like I've learnt so much that will improve the way I interact with people. <3

  61. As a person with (professionally diagnosed) PTSD I'd like to highlight the fact that people with PTSD dont always experience flashbacks.

  62. Ive always described my experiences with Derealization as its like I'm in virtual reality.. It looks ALMOST real, but feels off

  63. Honestly I think it's great to see that there is information about this on YouTube. When I was young and went through the trauma that I experienced this wasn't spoken about. It was kind of swept under the rug because of the stigma associated with it.

  64. The worst PTSD attack I ever had was during listening to a song I'd never heard before and that definitely hadn't come out when the related trauma happened. the scariest part is the song was one of those songs that you have no idea what they're saying but it turns out the song is related to what I went through.

  65. Hey I'm not entirely sure why so i thought I'd ask because maybe you know cause your smart but

    I feel like i have a memory that i can't remember it but i feel like i should know it and it's very confusing and been messing with my head and im not very sure why

  66. I have a question:
    Can alters have their own birthdays? Like, the host have idk, 2nd of June, and a Little have 4th of May and such?

  67. I love your videos but I need to point something out because ultimately if you quote something as fact when we are still learning about things and we don't know if things are actually impossible, improbable maybe, its really disruptive and further creates stigma, so here's my point. If DID can only form in children then how is it possible for a soldier who has gone through army training and possibly even battle scenarios, they've never experienced such childhood trauma, but form DID after being in the army they were in… I've known a soldier or two who were diagnosed DID and definitely didn't experience childhood trauma. Just some food for thought.

  68. I have a friend who was diagnosed with OSDD. The only criteria that was missing for her to be diagnosed with DID was dissociative amnesia. Except she does experience dissociative amnesia… sometimes. They’re looking into it to see if maybe she does have DID but it’s difficult to understand. She can remember sometimes, but sometimes she can’t.

  69. im glad to hear that there aren't silly triggers. I got triggered into a flashback because my boyfriend said he was okay when I knew he wasn't and even though it was a little lie it was still a trigger. (lying is a trigger)

  70. I have cPTSD and didn't realise until I watched this video that the feeling of watching yourself that I have experienced sconce year 6 was depersonalisation. I have repeated trauma from about the the ages of 5 – 10/11 so I suppose I was lucky in a way to avoid DID

  71. Thank you thank you thank you. I accidentally got addicted to these videos when doing research for writing my character with DID. I love your videos with a burning passion and nothing can stop me!

  72. I really enjoy and appreciate you guys’ videos! I am studying psychology, and I would really like to work with people with DID and other difficult mental health situations. DID is a really confusing and controversial subject, so I really appreciate that you guys are a first-hand look into DID while still being educational and citing sources! I just wanted your system to know that you are amazing and widely appreciated, and the information you give to me will most definitely be used by me while helping others (whether with or without DID) understand DID in the future. Much love! xoxo❤️

  73. Holy hell.. you explain this so well I'm starting to recognize some of these behaviors in someone really close to me..

  74. Does this mean that every kid under 7 y/o has kind of a lowkey DID? Do they experience life as if they have multiple personalities?

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